Wow, life has been so busy for the last several months – so much so that I have not had time to really even think about my blog, and I miss it dearly. I wanted to share with you a few things that I’ve learned during my first semester of college. I was just going to put it all in one post, but there are way to many important things that a singular post would be too limited and way too long.
So for this one, I want to start with some things I’ve learned about guys and God’s plan for me regarding that area of my life.
Going into college, I told myself, “Alright, Kelry. You’re going to make so many close relationships with both guys and girls, and if something develops from one of those guy friendships, then great. If not, then also great.” The first few weeks, I was doing fine, but then Satan was like, “Uh no. You need to make sure you look good for this guy.” and “Oh what about that cute guy over there? You better impress him!” I was overwhelmed with worries that I thought would be gone when I went to college.
I cried to my roommate one night and questioned, “Why hasn’t God brought a man to me yet? I feel so close to Jesus, and I’m ready! I’m just so confused and a little angry!”
She calmed me down some and told me to write down every quality and attribute I wanted in a man to be my husband. I was a little confused at first, but I did it anyways. After I wrote my list and shared it with her, she told me something that changed my life forever.
She said, “Kelry, Jesus is all of those things and can do all of those things! Consider Jesus as your lover, your husband.”
Can we just take a minute to let that sink in?
“Consider Jesus as your lover, your husband.”
The more I thought about this statement, the more I knew it was right and believed it was true. I mean, think about it. You would tell your husband everything right? – and you would want to! Your husband should be willing to lay down his life for you, just like Jesus did, right?
Jesus is the most patient, the most loving, the most selfless, the most encouraging man ever. He laid down his life for us. He is the best listener and the best comforter. He is your best friend. I can’t even continue to describe him cause he was literally perfect – the perfect husband, the dream guy all us girls hope for.
Why didn’t I ever think of this before? The Bible literally says he is the groom and we are his bride – why did this never click in my head?! I was immediately blown away when my roommate told me this. One of my immediate thoughts was, “I wish someone had told me this 6 years ago so I did’t waste most of middle school and all of high school worrying about boys all the time!” All of that time was showing me just how special is was and how important my relationship with him would be forever.
I had heard that quote before that says, “Dance with Jesus, and he will let he right man cut in.” People always told me to “fall in love with Jesus.” I’ve also heard that when you’re not looking for a man is when God brings one he’s got for you in your life. Both of these quotes sort of baffled me… until now. They made TOTAL sense!
God will let the man he has planned for me into my life when the time is right – I just have to fall in love with Jesus first.
Jesus heals all of my insecurities. He satisfies my longing desire to be loved unconditionally by a man – the best man I could ever imagine, my dream guy.
So for now, Jesus is the only man for me. Am I perfect at it? No – not at all. Am I ever going to be? No – not at all. I’m human so I’ll never be perfect. Every relationship takes work. However, I find myself so enthralled with him some days that all I want to do is read about him and talk with him. Jesus will always be the perfect man for me, and God will bring me a husband on earth to serve Jesus better with when the time is right.
With this newly formed relationship between Jesus and I, Satan has been freaking out lately; he’s been throwing insecure thoughts in my head and doubts about situations and people that love me and basically anything he can shove in my way to try to keep me from Jesus. BUT SATAN STINKS. HE’S DUMB. HE’S WEAK. HE’S SCARED.
Jesus never said life with him was going to be easy, and let me be the first to tell you it’s not. I question if it’s actually in God’s plan for me to marry, which is very hard to grasp and sad to think about, and I often get frustrated with God because of those thoughts. However, my relationship with Jesus the best thing that has ever happened to me. Jesus is my dream guy and he’s there for me in every situation and I pray that all those ladies reading this out there discover that the perfect husband is just waiting for you to accept him.
P.S. – Does this mean that Jesus is not for men? IN NO WAY IS HE NOT FOR MEN.
Just in a different way, I guess. More like a best friend – your “bro,” or whatever guys call their friends these days. Or maybe he’s more like a brother or a father. Either way, Jesus came for everyone, to love everyone unconditionally and to die for us. He’s just waiting for all of us to accept his offer.